The Fiction

I found this fictional story on Facebook. I used to read them when I was in basic school. I have only read one very small part of it and it reminded me how I first started my first fan fiction.

"Got up, did that, did that and then that and afterwards I did that."

Honestly it's boring as hell and it's get annoying after 2 or three sentences like that. The most embarrassing about this is that I used to write exactly the same and it was horrible. Now me and Kaili joke about my first story slash fan fiction but I guess it's a start (?). 

I'll probably keep reading it though but I have a slight feeling that it will be a One Direction fan fiction but then again the main character moved to Finland BUT THEN AGAIN mine was in Estonia and still McFly appeared in it, so yeah. I will keep on reading and let you know if my gut lied to me or not.

But the thing that disturbs me most about this fiction is that it demands likes. "If you don't give me at least five likes I won't write." Okay, she (probably she) doesn't write it like that but i all sounds the same.

And if you are interested in that story I'm raving here about you can check it out here. And I just realized that I gave her some free publicity. But I have to warn you it's in Estonian, so it's for all you Estonians out there.

I will start posting these andthatswhoiam pictures to bring a little more me into this blog and also you'll find out more about me in these things because I can't write these all and explain them because that's who I am (see what I did there XD)  And also I will say, just for references they all come from this Tumblr: ...and that's who I am.

What I have been up to lately? To be honest, nothing but something. I have been...how do you say this...depressed maybe. No, I don't sit in the corner or cry my eyes out most of the day but when I'm alone I get sad, I don't feel like coming out of the bed at all, and not because I'm tired but I don't feel like facing the world and also school isn't a place where I want to go recently. I have been trying to get over it - I go outside as much as I can, when I'm with people I goof off and smile. I'm really trying to get over that feeling but then again, when I'm by myself, I get depressive again and the part that most annoys me is that I DON'T KNOW WHY I AM THE WAY THAT I AM!?!?! No, I'm not talking about the general question, just that why I have these mood swings etc.  

I just wanted to write "but the good news is that..." but at the moment I don't have that good news. I'm just trying to get through the day. And, of course, one of the reasons why I haven't written for so long is that I don't feel like doing anything much lately. So, I'm honestly sorry and I'm trying to get better. I PROMISE!

XOXO Kristiina