The Sandwich

Yeah, I know catchy title XD And totally irrelevant. Today, I will write what I have been up to these days.

So, I'm back in Estonia just chilling...and I'm struggling writing this blog XD I don't know why...I have started this post here for like three times and HOPEFULLY this is the last time and I will be able to finish it.

Ever since I have been home, I have been a...lazy ***. There isn't a nicer way to say this XD. I'm not in the mood to see anyone and don't have the energy or will to do something. I didn't even had the energy to mix a drink and drink it...that was weird, I know.

There was only one day where I went out and met someone and actually had fun. I met up with Margi and it was so good to see her!

It's an old picture ^.^ and a little bit weird but it's hard to find something normal when it comes to me and Margi XD

We just hung out. Went out for a burger and just talked about boys. Yeah, main talks with Margi lately and we have every right to. We both have a ******* screwed up love life and we had a lot to talk about. We are in different situations but the main thing is the same - men are complicated. And that's all I'm going to say. I don't feel comfortable discussing my feeling here ^.^

What else? I have been watching Geordie Shore, not Jersey Shore but Geordie Shore XD Sometimes it feels like Jersey Shore with British accent XD But in reality, it has more drama and the house is like divided - on the one side there are the girls or lasses and on the other side are the boys or lads ^.^

There are two things I don't like about this:
1. The girls in Geordie Shore dress...a little too slutty for my taste.
2. The boys call girls birds. I hate it! I literally roll my eyes every time I hear it. It's just as disgusting as sugar and my old readers know how I hate that. 

But other than that I like this show and it's a little addictive ^.^

But that's it, I don't know what else to write XD I know that wasn't the most interesting post but yeah XD

XOXO Kristiina

The Girly

Oh my God! I don't consider myself as a make-up guru - I have a lot to learn - but there are people who really can't put on make-up. I mean like there are really terrible that I, kind of a beginner, are watching them wide-eyed and mentally banging my head against the wall. The worst part is that those awful videos are on YouTube and the authors have thousands subscribers. So there are thousand who make also terrible make-up

I absolutely love this make up here ^.^

So, yeah, I have been watching make-up videos again and I found these two women who do amazing make-up...and they are British XD Well, I think they are actual make-up artist and they recreate some famous people looks and some theme looks. I really like them. Their account name is Pixiwoo and here is a example video for you. 

And enough with the make-up and the girly stuff. I'm going to sleep now and hopefully I will write tomorrow, or today since it's basically already February 23rd bur anyways, I'll hopefully write soon ^.^

XOXO Kristiina

The School

From February 18th

Yeah, it's my first day back in school and already I'm bored. Okay, at the moment we are suppose to write this raport about the internship but I don't have to paper what I'm suppose to write, so I have nothing to do and the teacher just won't give me something to do. I think it's kind of rude of my classteacher to steal somebody's lesson like that but, oh well, what I can do. 

So, at the moment, I'm trying to write this blog and talking to people. This morning I checked all the places where I usually go to prevent myself from going to other places during lessons but obviously it didn't work. But if you don't have anything to do during these lessons then am I really suppose to just stare at the screen or do something that gets rid of my boredom? I obvilously chose the second one.

XOXO Kristiina

The Night

No, I'm not going to tell you about some crazy night in the dorm. Sorri! The title is The Night because it's just a night when I happen to be awake at 4:05 am (I'm so going to regret this in the morning but hell with this, who cares).

The reason why I stayed up so late is a simple game...okay, maybe it's not that simple but...oh you get the point. Anyways, it's called Magic: the Gathering. It has creature cards, enchantments, artifacts, instants and mana and there are rules...basically it's a tactical game and you use cards to play it but it can't be played only on the computer. You can also play it on the computer and I think also online but I won't bet my life on that last one.
And that's what I was doing for the last couple of hours. At first Janno helped me too (more like mocked me) but he was tired and went to bed, so I stayed up and played ^.^ And I got pretty far too...Oh God! I'm a geek...but happy to be one XD
How I found this game? Well, Erki taught it to me. Well, actually, I sorted through his backpack and I found a huge deck of cards there (there were like 150 cards there) and, of course, I asked him what were they and could he teach it to me. He did and I picked it up pretty fast and from time to time we just hung out and play it. I have got better and I'm more clever now and Erki sees the progress too. He's a great teacher ^.^

So, I apologize for not writing for some time now. Well, I have been sick. I was home sick last Thursday too and the doctor gave me a note for Thursday and Friday, so last week I stayed at home for two day. On Friday, I actually felt better but I still didn't go to work.

On the weekend I was totally fine but the night before Monday, I got only couple of hours sleep, so I was pretty weak on Monday at work and yesterday, I didn't dress warm enough, so I got sick again, and this time even worse. I didn't feel like myself at all - my head hurt and felt like it's was stuffed with cotton or something, I felt nauseous, I had a cough and every time I coughed my aching throat hurt even more + I had a stuffy nose.

Today, Friday, was the first day I went back to work. I didn't feel exactly like myself yet but I'm getting there. And I don't regret at all that I went. Okay, at first looking up made me dizzy but after a while I got used to it and when aamulla siivous was done I didn't have to anymore.
I also got a present from K-Citymaket for being there. My boss told me that I should go at get myself something from the store from around 20€. It's not much but it was definitely something and I got myself two things.

Maybelline Colorama, nr 354 Berry Fusion, and I love it - it's purple with a little red-ish undertone to it ^.^

&

Maybelline Fit Me, nr 115 Ivory. I had my eye on it such a long time but it is pretty expensive (12,90€) but now I have it ^.^

Yeah, it was my last day in Citymarket as an intern and I will miss going there from Monday to Friday.

I think the sleepiness is finally getting to me ^.^ So, I will finish for today. Tomorrow, I want to get some cleaning done because ever since I became sick I have forgotten that little chore and now I have to start thinking what I want to take with me to Estonia ^.^

XOXO Kristiina 

The Hurt

I wanted to talk about good things, exciting things but the only thing that has been occupying my mind is...I'm kind of out of words because I'm not sure if I should be pissed or hurt or sad or confused, so I pretty much feel all of the above, so yeah, not so great night, I might say.

I  can't even...I mean...Why should anyone think of me like that. I don't want to get into the details but why should anyone think of me so badly. In my book, I haven't done anything wrong and been friends with everyone but I guess that that's exactly my problem. Once I feel that I don't have to hide or over think or anything like that and I'm being punished for it. Well lesson learned!

XOXO Kristiina 

The Morning

So, I had to wake up at 4 am today because I had to be at work 6 am.

To be honest it wasn't so bad. Although, I didn't have much sleep. I went to bed about 9 pm but at first I couldn't well asleep, then my upstairs neighbors decided to clean up (or God knows what they were doing there), then I listened to some music to calm me down and I have no idea when I finally got to actual sleep.

My first wake up call was at 3:45 am (just in case) but I got myself up at 4 am. Got a shower, made breakfast, made myself look presentable XD and drank coffee, the most important part of my morning. Obviously I woke up too early because I got myself ready too fast.

The walk to work was...different. I didn't saw a soul walking around in Kauhajoki. I did see 29 cars + 4 in the K-Citymarket parking lot (yes, I was counting), 1 tractor driving a round and man on a bicycle XD And I was singing some of the way to work. When I was still in the dorm's territory, Kauhajoki felt a little creepy but then again, I was listening to Supermassive Black Hole, so I think even walking in Viljandi would have seemed creepy XD

I got to work early and because of that I had to stand around and wait for others.

Mitä tarkoita mennä kello 6 työhon? Varasto siivous

(translation: What it means to go to work at 6 am? Warehouse cleaning)

And when you are an intern, it basically means that you carry things from one place to another but after that I was in PUKE and I got to do aamulla siivous (it means that I will take all the hangers which doesn't have clothes on, put similar products together and make clothes presentable) and then I restocked a little and purkasin (unpack products and make them ready to the shop and also I have to put safeties on them). And that pretty much concluded my day.

Another news, I'm going to Estonia for the winter break. Mainly because my parents missed me so much that they wanted me back home and, to be honest, I don't mind XD I miss them too and another thing is that the next time I can go home is in the end of May (or I can go Easter brake but it's only 5 day, so if I want to be a good scholar, I can actually be in Estonia for 3 days).

At the moment, I'm going to Estonia with Ardi and Kaido and I found out today that it means that we are going to start our trip at 3 am. Is there any point at all going to sleep that night? I think not. 

I had an idea, that I will celebrate my birthday ahead when I'm in Estonia. Mainly because I want to see my dear friends and spend a fun night with them but we'll see if it will work.

And another news, I'm dying my hair. I have been thinking about it for months but I have never actually had a chance to do it but today when I went to do my aamulla siivous, I saw there were hair colors on sale and right there I noticed my dream color: mahogany ^.^ To be honest, it's not my actual dream color. I would like to die my hair red, like this:

or maybe this:

But mahogany is the second best thing - I get a chance to add some red color to my hair and sticking it safe. One of the main reasons, I don't die my hair red it that I'm not sure if the color will suit me.

And the Internet is down in the dorm (or at least it was 2 hours ago). I have been staying in Kaili's place writing this blog and from time to time, checking if the money has transferred. And it hasn't -.- Anyways, I'm not sure when my next post will be, since I don't want to bother Kaili so much.

PS. My Finnish might not be 100% right, I didn't use any translator (including Google translate) ^.^

XOXO Kristiina  

The Lock

I should really learn to lock my doors more, seriously, so I wouldn't have visitors in the middle of the night XD But then again, if they are drunk would a locked door really stop them? I think not, and to be honest, I don't want to risk it either because my door is already broken XD.

And bigger news, today is my mom's birthday! She 46 today. I feel bad that I can't be in Estonia with her and I'm stuck here :(
She is absolutely the best mom and she isn't just my mother, she is also my best friend. I can tell her anything and she always listens to me, even if the story I'm telling doesn't like her.
She is supportive and let's me make my own decisions, she is loving, caring, she has a good heart and is a little emotional but I love her so-so much!

Happy birthday,mommy!

XOXO Kristiina

The First

I'm such a good girl today, that I will make three blog posts today XD I don't remember the time I was such a good blogger XD but since one was for closing, one for opening, this one will be actually about what I have been up to all this time. I was planning to do this all about a week ago but yeah, it happened today. In a way, why not? It's a new month and good place to start, although, I once read that starting something in a special time, means your only pushing it forward. Which in a way, it's true! Because every minute in one's life is special - it will never come again.

Well, what I mainly do, it go to work. Actually, it's not technically work because I don't get paid for it, it's an internship which I have to do for my school. It was my 4th week in K-Citymarket and where did the time fly? It feels like still my first week ... although I know where most of the things are and I've improved my Finnish. I'm more comfortable speaking it now, I'm not so afraid but couple of customers have said that mä puhun huono suomen kieli (translation: I speak bad Finnish) and both of them apologized for saying that. To me it's weird hearing that since in Estonia, the Russians never apologize for it. Their attitude is more like you are stupid of not knowing it. It just shows that Finnish people are actually friendly but I have noticed that a little shy.

In the shop it's polite to say hello to every customer that walks past you and to be honest, after my work days are over, it's hard not to say hello to everyone that walks pass me in the streets.

This week I have liked the most. I have laughed and I have to say some of my bosses are great. Like today, me and Suvi were working in shoes department and we had to fit all these shoes but there was hardly any place, so we had to rearrange A LOT! We just emptied 3 carts when we went back to varasto (translation: it's like a warehouse) and we found even more shoes (oh dear). Suvi looked around and then looked right at me and said: "Me käymme nyt tupakille" XD (translation: We are going to have a smoke now - yes, I smoke, I picked up that habit here in Finland). Who was I do say no? XD If the boss says then we must XD.

I'm still pretty much do the same thing I did before and I still like being in KOVA (every other Citymarket department except clothing, shoes, foods and drinks) rather than PUKE (clothing and shoes) but lately I've had fun working there. Like I said, Suvi is a great boss and usually in PUKE I'm with my classmate who also got an internship there and we have had laughs. Sometimes I regret that I don't know much Finnish but I try not to be too hard on myself. I have been here half a yeah now but I have started talking just recently. So, it's OOOKOOO XD.

Speaking of how good I am, I cleaned one day ... A LOT! It all started when I thought that I want to be more productive, so I made my self a list of things to do the day before. I'm that kind of girl who likes to-do lists ^.^ So, eventually vacuumed and washed the floor of my room, dusted the room, rearranged my draws (which was a lot of work and now it takes a little more time to find what I need, since the things aren't where they used to be XD), arranged the bathroom, washed the dishes, cleaned the kitchen, rearranged tha cupboards and when I was done with ALL OF IT I treated myself a relaxing night, compliments to Elle Fowler from whose upload I was inspired.

You can check it out here!

It's the first time I have ever followed something like this and I don't even regret it for a second. It was so cosy - the candles were lit, the room was full of great scent, my hair and face felt great after all of it and I finally painted my fingernails ... I really remember when was the last time I painted my nails but I didn't have the strength to do the pedicure but the manicure came out great. I would show you, guys, but my hand are so dry that the picture I took looked almost disgusting. The cold and the work haven't done any good to my hands.
And the best part of the whole night, was that I sat behind the computer whole day, like almost every day and I finally opened the book which Janno gave to me. It's called Meister ja Margarita (translation: Master and Margarita - if you are interested in it, you can read about it here).

The next day, I didn't stop being good. I arranged my life online. Basically what I did, was deleting all the accounts which I don't need, rearranging those which I'm still interested in to my new e-mail account, unsubscribed from newsletters which I don't read and thanks to Erki, I got finally rid of a little glitch I had on my computer. 

I don't know when but I came really interested in skin care. I browsed around the web and found a test which determines your skin type. You can try it here but in a way it's not very accurate because it doesn't really test your skin but it worked for me because I kind of thought that my skin would be normal to combined (or something like that XD). The site also gives you guidance to take better care for it and it's according to some doctor, so points for that. Seems legit.


You have normal to combination skin.

"Experiment to strike a balance with products that aren't too greasy or overly drying," says Dr. Arielle Kauvar, associate director of The Laser and Skin Center of New York. Each morning, wash with a simple cleansing cream or bar rather than soap. Further clean the T-zone area with alcohol-free toner. Apply moisturizer where your skin needs it, and unify your complexion with oil-free foundation.
When exfoliating, a mild scrub every one to two weeks will suffice— look for one with salicylic acid. For your occasional body breakouts, treat skin with salicylic acid toner, which keeps pores unclogged, and benzoyl peroxide to kill acne-causing bacteria.
Don't forget to protect your skin from the sun— all year round. Dr. Kauvar reminds, "You tolerate sunscreen well; now wear it." She recommends SPF 15 year-round and SPF 30 in the summer. Protect your lips from wind and sun with zinc oxide or lip balm with SPF 30.


I also found out what kind of flirt I am XD Let's just say I was wondering. You can try it out here and I'm a Natural Flirt, oh joy XD It wasn't very comforting, I might add XD

You Are a Natural Flirt

Believe it or not, you're a really effective flirt.

And you're so good, you hardly notice that you're flirting.

Your attitude and confidence make you a natural flirt.

And the fact that you don't know it is just that more attractive!

I want to share a song with you. I found it in some of the subscribed videos I watch on YouTube. And it's perfect. I really really like it and I really hope that this year is going to be better. I'm not saying the last one was bad or anything. There were some life changing experiences there and, although it's usually said after a bad year that things can only get better from here but I really mean it in my case too.
Yes, the last year changed me but only from good to better. I have become more opened and sociable and I don't know how but now I'm more confident than I have ever been. Of course, there were some bad changes - I have started smoking and I drink more. I have thrown up two times already because of drinking. Not the best memories I have XD But they were experiences and I have learned from them :) And, in my opinion, it's good!

Okay now, I have written much and at the moment it's getting pretty late (1:42) and my back hurts and I really want to lie down. Let's just say, I'm not used to so much physical labor XD

XOXO Kristiina

The Beginning

So, this is my band new blog and if you haven't noticed it, it's called ...

“I am so clever that sometimes I don't understand a single word of what I am saying.”

And yes, it's by Oscar Wilde (the author of one of my favorite books) and it's sooo ******* true XD and that's all I'm saying XD about the title of course. 

By the way, all the pictures that aren't done by me,
will be linked, so you can click on it
and maybe check out the authors other works.

The banner was made by me (of course not the pictures themselves but anything else is authentic) and actually I worked on this blogs layout for about 2-3 days. Considering that it's pretty plain, says that I'm not so good at this but the real problem is that, I'm having trouble focusing on a one thing. Like example now, I'm writing then checking out what (probably) Ardi said, then sometimes I play with my blush brush which is lying around my table because I left it out in the morning and I also grabber my bronzer 3 times thinking that it's a mouse but I don't have a mouse right now because I lend it to Kaido because I'm such a good person ... or I at least want to believe I am. Actually all these extractions make me loose my train of thought and that's why the first paragraph was so damn short. I was going to explain it further but yeah ... distractions.

Anyways, I like my new layout but I can't write I like the blog yet ... well, this is my first post. So, how about a little introduction here! :D

So, to my old readers, you already know me and, may I say, too ******* well XD because on my old blog I did a facts countdown and, to be honest, if you have read through all the 115 post plus the one I published with this one, it would be ... awkward if you didn't.

But to my new readers ...
Heippa! My name is Kristiina. At the moment, I'm 19-year-old (my birthday is on March 19 and I was born in 1993, at 6.20 to be more precise) student from Estonia but at the moment and most of the time of the next 3 years (after the "but" it became difficult ... ) I will be in Finland, Kauhajoki. I'm studying in Suupohjan ammatti-instituutti and my field is business administration or in Finnish merkonoom ... and in Estonia it's ärikorraldus (had to mention it if we were talking in all different languages). I'm a typical 19 girl ... woman who loves fashion and make-up and music and milkshakes and ice-cream and spicy stuff and animals (especially tigers) and white roses and scented candles and accessories and SO ON AND SO FORTH. I can go on forever, baby (hint: Home Alone 2: Lost in New York).
In my last blog I was calling myself Natsu. Why? Because my identity is the biggest gift I can have and at that time I wasn't ready to reveal my true self and to be honest, I have hardly been just Kristiina. My name is quite long and people can come up with the most creative names. Natsu (short for Natsumi) was given by my best friend Kaili (who calls herself Yuki) and if I'm not mistaken meant "summer beauty" and Kaili thought that it would suit me the best. Well, I do like summer XD. Long story short, I'm not used to my real name. Though kindergarten, basic school and middle school, I had like hundreds of nicknames but when I went to high school 2/3 of my class didn't know me at all, so for some of the people I became Kristiina and when I came here most of the people called me Kristiina (okay, sometimes I'm Krissu too).
Okay, I don't know what else to say about myself :)

So, long story short ...

WELCOME TO MY NEW BLOG!

XOXO Kristiina